After reading Sugar's post http://lowseclifestyle.blogspot.com/2013/06/gratification-now-or-later.html I have found myself thinking long and hard about how much of a losing fight I keep having with Eve. Literally.
Whether it be a stupid mistake of falling for a trap and getting hot dropped 15 vs 1, or just traveling from system to system and being forced into combat, or actively seeking a fight, I tend to lose 90% of the time. I'll admit, I love PvP, but my stats show that I'm horrible at it. I do have some victories I'm proud of, but they are few a far between.
I only have 5.5 million skill points right now, and there is easily a million or two of random crap skills that I never should have trained in there. If I could go back in time I would decide what type of pilot I wanted to be much sooner so I could focus on those skills only. If you've read my blogs, you'll see that I was a logi pilot, a stealth bomber, battlecruier, blah blah blah. Because I spread my skills all over the place I'm decent at a lot, but not good at anything.
I'm hoping that the primary cause is the fact that I'm still not even 6 months old in the game, but I truly don't know. I can fully fit a frigate or destroyer with full T2 guns and T2 mods. I don't have T2 medium guns yet, but I'll be focusing on that here soon. That being said, I don't typically find myself out roaming around in a frigate looking for a fight. I tend to favor flying cruisers, and have 5 more days till cruisers is trained to V. After that's done, I'll be training my T2 medium guns. Perhaps I should be flying frigates and destroyers more often until then, but they tend to pop so quickly I never even get a chance to fight back. It seems to be more about who caught who off guard, or who shot first, rather than skill or technique.
I don't want to get disheartened, but 6 months of playing a game, and I lose 9 out of 10 fights??? I think the average player would give up by now if their primary goal was PvP. Luckily I still enjoy stealth bombing, fleeting up with my corp mates and killing NPC's and other players from time to time, otherwise I think I'd probably lose interest in this game.
I don't want them to change the game at all, so please don't take this rant as a "Eve needs to change" soap box. I love Eve but that doesn't mean that it can't be very difficult to break into the PvP world, especially on a solo level.
Participating in big fleets can actually be just as difficult too though. Not the actual fighting part, but following commands, figuring out who needs to do what and when, and that's only if you're lucky enough to even get an invite to a big fleet. Nobody trusts anybody in Eve and if you haven't proven yourself, you don't get fleet invites even if you are a member of a big alliance. They don't want spies revealing the position and plan and fleet composition (and I respect that), but for the noob trying to help out and learn some PvP skills, it's very frustrating.
I may only bring about 400-500 dps to a fight on average but I still want to pew pew shit just like the rest of capsuleers out there. Our corporation is currently working through an identity crisis and I think once we're done redefining who we are, I'll see a lot more positive changes in the PvP world. There are two or three opponents out there that have racked up more than a few kills on me, I just can't wait for the day that I can stand an even chance of getting some revenge.